I hate this. Everything I do on tumblr, looks ugly. Everybody else’s tumblr looks so pretty. I’m never satisfied with my own.

My little brother. Named Christian. I don’t know the full story… but, all I know is, he passed away because of a paper bag. My mom had paper bags all over the place in this one house, and Christian put it over his head. By the time my mom came back, she found my little brother not breathing. I’m not sure if he went to the hospital or something, but he ended up passed away. This is all I really know.

… Is it bad that I only want one thing?

1. My cousins that I miss so much.

That’s all. Honestly, I’m so thankful for what I have. I honestly want nothing else, except seeing the cousins I miss.

1. My cousins. My cousins in Saipan. My cousins in California. My cousins in Guam. Even my cousins here.

2. Younger times. I was so much… nicer. Less sassy. I had a better imagination. I didn’t take anything for granted. I didn’t know about the problems you face when you grow older.

3. When the only shows on Disney Channel were, ‘Lizzie Miguire, That’s So Raven, ect.’ The only show on ABC Family was, ‘Full House.’ And when Cartoon Network had the shows, ‘The Grim Adventures of Billy And Mandy,’ or something.

1. If I’m feeling a certain feeling towards someone, I won’t tell them how I feel. I won’t tell them what I’m thinking. I wish I could. But, I don’t want to come off as a bitch, so I keep quiet.

2. How I feel about someone. (Tell my crush I like them, basically. But I don’t have a crush now, haha.)

3. When people pick on me, I want to scream, “Shut up. I know about my weight, okay? You don’t have to keep fucking telling me, over and over. I hear it enough. God. Just leave me alone.”

4. When I do something wrong. Like, if the person’s a hypocrite, I wanna say, “Oh. I see. So, when you do it, it’s rainbows and butterflies. But. When I do it, it’s bullshit.”

You see? This is one of the million many reasons why I love her.

1. Space Bound - Eminem.

2. Believe In Me - Demi Lovato.

3. A Little Bit Longer - The Jonas Brothers.

4. Bad Repuation - Avril Lavigne.

5. Don’t Lie - Black Eyed Peas.

1. Life. I love life. I honestly do. I’m tired of taking everything for granted and hating every little thing I get, that other people would kill for. I want to be happy with what I have. I want to be a better person. Oh, and. My friends and family? They’re my life.

2. Music. When I listen to some songs, I listen closely to the lyrics. And I love songs with a meaning. But, I need a song to jam to here and there.

3. Laughing. I can’t go a day without laughing. It’s like… a music lover going one day without music. Impossible.

4. School. As odd as it sounds, I love school. I love learning stuff. I love math. I love reading. Just. Askghl. I dunno.

5. Books. I just love them. Okay.

6. COKE. If coke was a dude, I’d fall in love with it. No doubt.